All of this is not what we had envisioned for our life and there is a lot of grieving however we still have hope. With Jesus Christ there is always hope We can trust in him alone and trust that he is working all things for good. We know and our confident that this is all part of his wonderful plan. I know that he purposes these things for our good. I know that all these trials and all this suffering is so that the works of God can be displayed. I believe these truths and hold onto them every day. It doesn't mean I have to like this though, it doesn't mean that it's not painful and that I can't cry out to the Lord to take it away.
Romans 8: 22 says
22 For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. 23 And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.
Please pray that we would focus our minds on God's truths and his goodness and not be consumed by fear. We desire to live each day with hope and joy.
Noah's appointment went well. They can never really give us time limits for a heart for him. They can only go by where he is on the Unos list, trends, and how often they have seen his name come up. They did remove some avoiders. We did not ask what they meant by that. We assume they mean peramiters they set at the beginning when they felt like we had more time. They feel by doing this that it will help speed things up for him. They also suggested we schedule Hannah's surgery right away since it needs to be done this summer. They do not want to take Noah off the list for this which causes me great anxiety but again God will supply what we need and already knows the timing. All I can do is trust.
It was a lot to take in so we appreciate your prayers as we make appointments and trust God with all the timing. We are so thankful for the ways you all come along side us. We are thankful to not have to walk this road alone. We feel very supported and truly thankful for you.