Counting Our Blessings

Counting Our Blessings

Sunday, September 30, 2018

Mayo Update

As I reflect back on our week in Minnesota I’m grateful for so many things.  Grateful for the Lord's provision in making this trip a reality for us. Grateful for so many peoples prayers and support. Grateful for visits with long time friends and Grateful for the opportunity to have so many appointments and tests with incredible doctors all in a weeks time.

I had heard many incredible things about the Mayo Clinic but it more than surpassed our expectations.  It is an incredible place.  I have never experienced anything quite like it.  What do I mean?  Well for starters every doctor we met with spent over an hour with us and it was clear that they studied our files and talked with other doctors at the Mayo clinic about our case.  They have a team approach.  They all work on Salary so they have the gift of time.  Everything is done onsite.  Every test, lab, research etc.  In CA we see doctors and specialist all over town.  Every procedure is scheduled weeks out, and different companies have to mail things out to you.  At mayo we were able to do tests, procedures, labs, x-rays, and many doctor visits all within a week.  Some tests that the doctors wanted after we saw them we either did same day or next day.  I joked with Jason that everyone of the staff must take Happy pills.  Everyone seems to love their job and treated you like you were very important to them.  Everything is run so efficiently and set up super well  even for people who have disabilities.  They have special needs restrooms available on every floor, the check in Kiosks you can move down to wheelchair level, the drinking fountains are normal and wheelchair height and have dixie cups for those that can’t drink from the fountain.  They really thought things through.  People come from all over the world come get care from Mayo. If you want to know more Ken Burns did a documentary that aired on PBS this week.  You can go to PBS.com to watch it. After my first appointment I downloaded the Mayo Clinic app on my phone.  This gave me access to my schedule, labs, test results, and comprehensive doctors notes and records(they take amazing transcribed notes after each visit).  All of these things are downloaded on my app within an hour of completion.  I was able to see my x-rays, blood test results, doctors notes etc.  I have had other portals here in CA but nothing is ever loaded and the doctors don’t put any notes from your 10 min visit.  The place is huge and I can’t say enough great things.

Our main reason for this visit was to see Dr. Selcen.  A doctor who has the most expertise with our specific rare disease.  When we first met Dr. Selcen we got the impression that she was just as excited to see us.  She has a passion for studying Myofibrillar Myopathies. If you look up Myofibrillar Myopathies you will see her name all over many of the publications. She is a research doctor and sees other patients with our particular Myopathy.  She is brilliant and every doctor we encountered talked about how brilliant she is.  She spent close to two hours with us at our first appointment and we met with her a total of three times.  She explained what was going on with the genes to cause this Desmin protein to aggravate the muscle fibers.  We felt like we gained a ton of understanding and felt hopeful that she is working hard to find a way to help this Myopathy.  She gave us some handouts on some current studies that are being done.  She recommended a couple antioxidant supplements.  They have done some testing and have found that one may help to slow down the aggregation of the protein in the muscle that is causing the weakness and the other helps keep the muscles that haven’t been effected energized.  They are over the counter and is no way a cure but they have found it to help.  We are looking forward to giving them a try and keeping in contact with her as more questions and symptoms arise.  She is a part of a Desmin Facebook page that she invited me to.  It’s a place to connect, share symptoms, hear about Dr. Selcens research and advances.  I told her I was passionate about helping to educate others especially doctors so they can help others that may be struggling to find a diagnosis.  She had Noah and I take pictures and video for educational purposes.  So thankful to have met her.

Another reason for our visit was to get some clarity and direction on Noah’s heart condition.  This was another positive experience.  We met with a Pediatric Cardiac transplant doctor named Dr. Johnson. This doctor knew Both Dr. Chang and Dr. Alejos our current doctors here at CHOC and UCLA.  He had wonderful things to say about them both.  We love our doctors but have felt unsettled on the fact that they do not agree with one another and it has made us question if we are doing everything wended to be doing.  Noah came into this appointment really wanting to understand his heart condition.  He left feeling like this was the first doctor to really explain everything to him.  Dr. Johnson explained to us that most people with Restrictive Cardiomyopathy do not survive past two years and that most of them do not even make it to transplant.  This is why they put them on the Transplant list right away.  This is why Dr. Chang has been concerned with him being off the list.  Dr. Johnson agreed that his EKG is one of the scariest he has seen.  However his Echo looks amazing and doesn’t make since with his EKG.  His pressures and heart looks good for someone who has RCM.  Since his EKG has been the same since his first one at 9 years of age you have to assume that its because of his muscle disease.  Dr. Johnson agreed with UCLA to keep monitoring him every three to six months and if his echo starts to look bad to list him immediately.  We asked him if he has ever seen anyone get better with RCM and he said NEVER.  Dr. Selcen brought up the point that it will be better to be transplanted  before his muscles get weaker.  This is something we will have to consider in the future.  We came to the realization that it will be a decision that Noah will have to make as he will be an adult in just a couple years.  He understand this and I think its one of the reasons he really wanted to understand his condition.  We left this appointment  feeling more at peace about the decision to keep him off the list for now and feel more confident in our doctors at UCLA. 

My visit with the pulmonologist was difficult.  She was a wonderful doctor and really helpful in explaining how my breathing muscles are being effected by my disease.  It was disheartening to see such a big decline in a year and a half.  She talked through the tough things ahead like trachs, and 24 hour ventilation. These things could be far down the road but it seems like we get closer all the time.  It’s difficult to hear the hard things but also good to prepare our hearts and minds.  My visit with the cardiologist was good.  My echo looks really good.  Even though I’m stilling having v-tach episodes, the fact that my ICD hasn’t gone off is good.  If it starts to go off then there are other meds and treatments that can be done so we felt hopeful.


This is really long so I will end with a heartfelt thank you.  Thank you to those that our invested in our story and care enough to walk along side us. Thank you for all your prayers and words of encouragement.  We felt so lifted up by all of you this last week.  

2 Corinthian 4:16-17
So we do not lose heart, though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.  For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

T- 3 days

T minus 3 days until we hop on an airplane and travel to MN to visit the Mayo Clinic. I have been feeling a mix of emotions as the time draws nearer. I mostly feel deep gratitude for how smooth and evident the Lord’s hand has been all over this process. It started with a conversation with a friend that led me to think about going. I have known about this specialist there that has done research on our rare disease. Just the fact that she has seen patients with our condition is helpful. I called Mayo Clinic thinking I would have to jump through many hoops and many phone calls to make this trip happen. This was not the case. The First Lady I talked to took down my insurance info and set everything up while on the phone. She registered me and told me to send all my medical documents over.  I thought this next step would be difficult so I went in person to two of my doctors to see about getting my medical files. Both places had me sign a form and printed them out right there on the spot. Whaat??? I expected to be directed to another building wait forever to sign papers and have them mailed. Nope not the case. I scanned all my documents and explained to them that I wanted to meet with a certain Neurologist at Mayo who had expertise with our disease. I told her we were willing to fly out and could spend a week. The doctor then called me herself and got more information about what we hoped to achieve at our visit. She then said she would set up apts. and procedures, and labs for us and looked forward to meeting with Both Noah and I. We got our apt. Schedule soon after that. Not only was that process smooth but we found out that Noah’s transplant Fund would cover the expenses for our trip. The Lord has provided for everything and I feel such deep gratitude. I wish that were enough, but I also feel very anxious. I’m nervous for some of the answers to some tough questions we have. Nervous for new information. At the same time I’am Hopeful. Hopeful to see someone that understands this disease and could possibly give us some encouraging news. New possibilities. I’m trying to pray boldly believing that God is big enough to give us some relief from the hardship of this disease if he chooses. My head knows that I should be ok either way trusting that his plan is Better than my own but my heart wants some relief.

Would you all pray for this trip? Pray that we would get answers regarding Both of our heart conditions. That we would get some clarity on Noahs lungs, that we would hear some encouraging new advances regarding our muscle disease, that we would get good encouraging answers to our questions. That we would process information well. That we would help Noah process things well. That we would be a good support to one another. That we would lean on the one who is bigger than disease and hardships.  

I was encouraged this week by Joseph’s story in the Bible. The suffering of Joseph physical, mental, and emotional agonies had been allowed by God so that Joseph could fulfill God’s plan to save many lives. I want to have a response of willingness, faith, humility, and meekness so that God can use me to fulfill his plan.  We would appreciate your prayers so much. Hoping to blog updates for you all during the week.

Melody

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Overdue Update

I’m so sorry for not updating about Jason sooner.  To be honest it has been difficult to know just how to update when we are still left with not a lot of answers.  I kept pushing it off hoping I would have something better to give you. The biggest thing to celebrate is that all tests have come out looking fine. We are still investigating but are thankful at this point that there haven’t been any further episodes or cause for concern. No news is sometimes good news.  It took a few weeks for the nerves and anxiety that it might occur again to go away. Thankfully we all understand that  just like everything else that occurs in our family it’s all out of our control.  So we press on knowing and trusting in the one who is sovereign over all things.   

We will get another opportunity to practice patience and trust in a few weeks.  Jason, Noah, and I will be visiting the Mayo Clinic in Rochester MN.  When Noah and I were first diagnosed with Desmin Myofibrillar myopathy I researched it like crazy.  Unfortunately there wasn’t a lot I could find.  I did find a doctor  who did some research on it and wrote a few publications.  Her name is Dr. Selcen and she works out of the Mayo Clinic.  She has actual patients with our same disease. This is a big deal because all the doctors we see are not as familiar with our disease.  They can treat the symptoms but not really help with what to expect.   We had talked about going over the years but Noah was on the transplant list and life just happened.  The Lord put it on my heart again as I was chatting with a girlfriend and  he has literally helped make this trip happen down to every last detail. We leave September 22 and Both Noah and I have appointments and procedures all week long.  We would really appreciate your prayers.  We are really hoping to get some answers and gain some understanding on several big areas of our disease.  More on this in another post.  Because there is no cure for our disease these appointments can be difficult.  We know we will hear many things that will be hard to process. We are hopeful also to hear some solutions and possibilities from doctors who have experience seeing patients with our same disease.   Would you please pray for our time.  I’m hoping to blog more about our experience so we will keep you posted. 

Thank you for continuing to be our support.  We are so grateful.