Being satisfied in God (or anything) always seems easier when all is going well. But when things you love are being stripped out of your hands, then the test is real. If God remains precious in those moments, then his supreme worth shines more brightly. He is most glorified. -John Piper
For those of you who have been following my blog for sometime know what a big John Piper fan I am. He has been a huge encouragement to me in some of my darkest moments. He constantly reminds me that it’s not about me, he reminds me that God is not wasting any of my suffering, and he reminds me that God loves to bless his children. Oh how I need those truths repeated to me over and over and over again. Why do I need to hear them again and again? Because we forget. We retreat inward and we allow ourselves to focus on our circumstances. we focus on what they are doing to us instead of focusing on what HE is doing through us. I once again have to make the choice of letting go of control, and fear, and doubt and surrendering it all to the Lord. It’s not easy but I know the peace and joy that comes when we are fully able to rest in him. I need your prayers that I will once again be able to do this.
This Thursday I will once again go in for surgery. My heart is getting weaker and the doctors feel like the best plan is to put in a subcutaneous Defibrillator. So that is the plan. Our biggest prayer is for a successful surgery with no unexpected surprises. My heart went through some stress after my last surgery and we are praying that the Lord would protect my heart. Would you all say a prayer for Jason as he watches his wife once again get wheeled away for surgery. pray that the Lord would meet him in the sweetest ways. Pray for our kids that they wouldn’t feel anxious but would rest in knowing that the Lord is watching over their mom. I’m filled up knowing that in the days leading up to surgery when I’m feeling depleted you all are lifting us up. Thank you for that. You all don’t know what a gift that really is.