Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Seeing God through the Craziness.
I apologize for being MIA. I have been extremely tired and busy. I have had so many ideas for blog entrys and no energy to sit down and post them. With birthdays, t-ball, homeschool, end of the year stuff, Easter, Mothers Day,The Ladies Tea, Husband traveling for work and planning his China trip life has been CRAZY BUSY. As if that wasn't enough. After a few years of trying to figure out my weight loss and muscle weakness we finally got some answers. I saw a Neurologist last week and he is pretty certain that I have Myatonic Dystrophy. Whaaaaattt? I know I had the same reaction. Not exactly the funnest words to hear. Myatonic Dystrophy is a form of Muscular Dystrophy. It is uncureable and the progression affects everyone differently. There are many forms so we are having tests to find out exactly which form I have. I really feel strongly that the Lord had been preparing my heart for this news. I was asked to speak at our Ladies Tea at church a couple of months ago. I nervously said yes. The theme is on God's Unfailing Love and I have been spending time in the word reading about God's love in the midst of suffering. This is no coincidence. Also the night before my appointment I was looking stuff up online. I was getting nervous as I read more life threating diseases that I had symptoms for. So when I got the news the next day I was thankful that the doctor did not say it was any of the ones I had read up on. This has been a lot to take in and figure out exactly what this is going to look like for the future. I know however that I just want to be used by God in every situation I'm dealt with. I know that he will use this for his glory and I will see him in beautiful ways. He has blessed my life in more ways than I ever deserve. We serve a wonderful God who holds us in the palm of his hand and wants only the best for his people. He never promised us a nice comfortable life on Earth but he has promised us eternity with him with no suffering and no pain. Oh how I long for the day to see my savior face to face. This news will not crush my spirit but make me believe stronger in the things My Lord can do. Nothing is impossible with God. He works together all things for good for those who believe in him. We would appreciate all your prayers. More details to come.