I want to thank you for all the encouraging words regarding my last post. I hate those days when my joy has been sucked dry and I'm down and out. So Thankful for how God quickly restores my soul and lifts me up out of the pit. We have the most wonderful God who is so faithful in reminding us that he is here. That he will never leave us or forsake us. It was a really hard week where I felt just exhausted emotionally and physically. The physical limitations get to me sometimes. I have an amazing trainer who is so positive and he set up a game plan to help my strength. I had stopped taking creatine(a muscle builder) for about three months I just missed a few and got out of the habit. He urged me to restart and also encouraged me to start taking an anabolic steroid called Anavar. He has been talking about Anavar for a year. He said it has really helped Aids patients in regaining strength and athletes to recover faster. I had been hesitant. I don't like to put stuff in my body that Im not familiar with and I needed to check with my heart doctor. The week I was down caused me to be at a place where I was willing to try anything that would help my situation. I started on both these things last week. I have already seen a remarkable difference especially in my pain. I was able to do a full Costco trip without pain. Thats huge for me. I also had a crazy idea to start riding a bike again. The first attempt did not go over well but I was determined to keep trying. Today I got back on the bike with my trainer and successfully rode on my own. I'm over the moon happy and pray that I will continue to increase my strength. I do not want to let this disease defeat me. God is so present in those hard moments when we don't feel him near and I know he was whispering in my ear saying if only you can see what I have in store for you next week baby girl, You would wipe away those tears immediately. He is ALWAYS working all things together for good.