Oh to be used by him

I had one of those beautiful experiences this morning of God showing us how he is using us for his glory. This is always my biggest prayer that I would be used by him in ways that were glorifying him. Last February we did our first America World Adoption Seminar at our church. We had decided to sign on as associates to help spread the word about Gods design for adoption and share our Journey and the work the Lord did through our adoption of Hannah. I had decided to leave a few flyers out at the benches at WC Friday school incase anyone was interested in coming. After the seminar a couple who had picked up a flyer at WC came up to us and said they were so blessed by the seminar and that there hearts were open to adopting from China. We talked a bit and said we wanted to have them over for dinner. Months went by and at the end of school we found out that they had applied with an agency and were starting the process. We were thrilled for them. Over the summer I had thought of this couple often wondering how things were going. This morning I got the opportunity to catch up with my sweet friend Alexis. She told me that she was so blessed by our story and the ways God was already working in their journey. They had received a referral for a 7 year old beautiful girl with a heart condition. They decided to name her Melody yes you read that right Melody(down came the waterworks) They said they were beyond happy to be naming there child in our honor and that we played an instrumental role in God's adoption plan for their Melody. After bawling I hugged her and said how excited I was for them and Melody and this journey. Lord thank you for that special conversation this morning and for allowing me to see the ways you are using our family to Glorify your name. You are an amazing God and we constantly stand in awe of you. The Lord spoke to me through this conversation this morning. He reminded me that I'm so blessed to be his. That I just need to concentrate on the wonderful blessings and WAIT on him because he is doing a work in my life that is bigger than diagnoses and tests and diseases. If you would like to hear more of Alexis's story you can read it here http://www.melodyfromchina.blogspot.com

Waiting!

This verse is especially fitting for me today. Isaiah 40:31 But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

I had an appointment with a third Neurologist today. We went through all of my history, did a full exam and answered a lot of questions. This Neurologist seems determined to figure out what kind of Muscle wasting disease I have. He would like a month to investigate. So we wait some more :) There are hundreds of possibilities and he needs to narrow it down by the criteria and tests I have undergone before he makes me do any further testing. I'm confident that God is working all things together for good and is going to use this situation for his glory. I would Love to have all the answers but I'm confident that the Lord has them and wants me to wait. Like the verse Wait for him so he will renew my strength. Even though it is hard not knowing what I'm facing I'm so grateful for the things this disease has not effected and the ability to lead a normal life I do not want to wallow in this. This is where the Lord will do his work in me and I want to be willing with open arms to accept this trial. I pray that I would keep leaning on him and clinging to his words on days that seem hard. I will keep you all updated as we get more information and have appreciated your prayers and help. Next post I promise to have some cute pics of the blessings.

melody

Now What?

Yesterday I finally received the results of the Genetic testing for the Myatonic Dystrophy 2. The Doctor told me over the phone that the results were Normal. Normal meaning I did not test positive for that disease. You would assume that I would have been overjoyed at this news. In all reality I didn't know how to feel. Two doctors were with out a doubt 100% sure that I had this. I had accepted that this was going to be a part of my new life and had began to prepare as best as I could mentally for what lies ahead. Now What? Instead of the doctor saying "wow we were wrong, I don't know where to go from here". The doctor continues to say "well I still think it is that disease but we want to get a third opinion to see what this doctor thinks it might be. In other words they have no clue. They recognize that I have a lot of muscle weakness and muscle wasting but have no clue what disease this is. It could be any number of the dystrophies or a very rare case. Our next step is to see the third Neurologist and to also ask to be referred to a mayo clinic. Yesterday was a hard day as I processed the thought of more tests and more diagnoses that could be worse or could be better. Difficult in realizing I don't have control on whether we even get answers and so on. I completely lost all hope and completely forgot that time and time again my wonderful heavenly father has taken care of me and performed miracle after miracle in my life. I have really been at one of my lowest points these last few months. I have longed for the Lords joy and peace to fill my soul. I woke up today finally in a much better place. I woke up today thankful for another day to have energy to be a mom and a wife and a friend and a servant. Thankful that the Lord is carrying me through even when the lenses are foggy and I don't see him or feel him at times he is there. Nothing else matters and no test results are going to change that. The days aren't always easy and the road is long and tough but I know he is carrying me and he is worth the fight. I pray that he would use this trial for his glory and that I would choose to look for him in the midst of it. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Favorite Photo Friday

Favorite Photo Friday~

I am linking up with Lisa from The Long Road to China for

Favorite Photo Friday

I love this picture. She put this on herself and has really started playing more on her own. I love to hear her playing pretend and using her imagination.

First Day of Co-Ops!

Many of you already know that I homeschool my blessings. Well I kinda do anyway. They really only do school with me half the time. The other half they each go to there own co-op class. This means that someone else teaches them and nine of there close friends at a separate house. They also go to Friday school. This is through a private christian school. They are in a classroom with like 15 kids and have all the fun things that a school offers like school pictures, assemblies, flag salute, fundraisers, programs and field trips. It really is awesome and they love it. Well this week co-op officially started and Little Miss started her very own pre-school co-op. This momma had mixed emotions. I was excited and nervous for her all at the same time. She did great. She kept saying "ME SCHOOL" "MY TURN" it was very cute. She was so excited to take her back pack and her lunch bag. With all that has been going on it was nice to have a few hours to myself to just sit and breathe and run errands. It is going to be a great year.